Some Nights I am Grateful For Whiskey February 9th, 2016 1:45 AM
Four minutes after updating my Facebook profile photo, I posted a photo of Jim Beam on Facebook and added the words —
“Some nights I am grateful for whiskey #GrievingSucks”
I knew that my next Facebook post was going to be faith centric to care for those who had a faith background and I wanted to balance that post out with this one.
I started a new bottle of Jim Beam about 1:30 AM and by 6:00 AM I had drank the whole bottle. Sleep did not come until about 8 AM…
I am not suggesting that you approve of this choice, I am just telling you what I did.
I Updated My Facebook Profile Photo Feb 9th 1:41 AM
First I updated my Facebook cover photo, then I updated my Facebook profile photo to a photo of Zayne and his older brother Zac. This photo was taken the night they both scored varsity touchdowns for the Skyview Storm.
The joy in their faces is radiant. That is how I wanted to remember Zayne and that is how I wanted others to remember him.
Yes, it is just after 2 AM on March 8th, 2016 and I am crying as I type this post. 30 days ago I lost my son Zayne and the ache is grueling. Fuck.
I Updated my Facebook Cover Photo Feb 9th, 2016 1:38 AM
My 17 year old son Zayne passed away the evening of Feb 8th, 2016. Later that evening I realized that for me, sharing this tragic news on Facebook would be like pulling a band aid off and it would allow to me to communicate with 100s of people without having to have the 100s of conversations that I was simply not ready to have.
I decided to start by changing my Facebook cover photo to one of my favorite Bible verses Revelation 21:4.
Revelation 21:4 -“He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”
Unless you were in my immediate family, this facebook post was the first indication that something was up….